Growing up, I’ve always heard the saying “patience is a virtue” in regards to my “I have to have it now!” personality. I never really understood what was so virtuous about it, and why people always made it seem like it was so wrong to receive what you want without having to wait 10+ years (or so it always feels like) to get it. I mean, if I pray and work hard for what I want, why can’t I just receive it when I want it?!
This has been a question in the back of my mind for awhile as I stand on his promises in what feels like the “waiting room” in my life. It wasn’t until recently that I had a revelation which made the lightbulb go off in my head, and finally my question was answered.
Failure. It’s a word that sends chills down my spine at just the thought of it, yet it is exactly what happens when we don’t allow patience to operate in our lives. Imagine having a mountain bike that you’ve worked hard at using every day, and now you’ve mastered how to ride it effortlessly. Now, imagine that you have just been gifted a brand new Harley Davidson motorcycle. Yes, it’s still a bike, but it’s on a new level and a lot more advanced than your mountain bike you’ve been riding every day. If you jump on and start riding without adequate training you’re gonna crash on the first ride. Or, if you encounter a situation on the bike that you’re not familiar with because you haven’t properly prepared, the results could be deadly.
Sometimes we feel like we are ready for what we’ve been hoping and praying for right away, but little do we know that God may be trying to give us that request plus more (which equals up to a Harley Davidson or bigger). Rather than gifting it to us as soon as we ask or when we feel we’re ready for it, he will have us wait and properly prepare ourselves so that we do not face inevitable failure once we receive it.
Now, I’m no genius, BUT I would consider myself to be very smart and I can usually learn things pretty quickly. So this made me think…if God has me in this “waiting room” for THIS LONG and still feels like I’m not quite ready for the magnitude of his blessing, well gosh darn-it this must be a MOUNTAIN-SIZE blessing coming my way!! 🙂 I’m totally willing to wait because with something that big coming, I definitely don’t want failure to come anywhere near it!
Jumpuit: H&M || Booties: Urban Outfitters || Sunglasses: Aldo || Lipstick: Sephora Luster Matte (deep plum)
Photographer: Roberto Johnson of FashionInSpanglish.com
Xo, Chrissy Joy