“The road to paradise is easy to pass, & you’ll never see the signs if you’re moving too fast” – W. Darling (Hunting Happiness)
A few days ago, I found myself laying in bed at midnight listening to the lyrics of the song above and staring around my room. It was in that moment that God showed me the direction he was taking me, while giving me a huge sense of appreciation from where I’ve been.
It started 3.5 years ago when I moved back to New York after completing a short internship prior to graduating, and spending the summer in North Carolina. It was in that sporadic move that I decided to make it on my own (the first time I was living with a unknown uncle that a few family members told me about and suggested I stay with). Within the first 5 months of moving back to NYC I moved three to four times, and went from crashing on couches to the floor of a friend’s one room studio apartment.
After months of prayer, I finally found an apartment in Brooklyn in which I could rent a room. However, when I moved in I didn’t have any more than the two suitcases of clothes that I had brought with me when I moved back to New York earlier. Which meant that I had to sleep on an air mattress (that I borrowed from a friend), hang some of my clothes in the closet and put the rest in a makeshift dresser (which was really one of my suitcases that I left unzipped with my clothes folded nicely inside). It was a far comparison to my previous bedroom in North Carolina that was fully furnished with a private balcony & personal bathroom. But it was the best that I could do, and it was so great to have a space that I could call my own.
Fast forward to today. I am living in the same room, but as I lay down at midnight to listen to music, I realize that I am snuggled up in a comfortable bed instead of a air-mattress that had to be re-filled with air once every few days. I look over at a nice wooden dresser that replaced the leopard suitcase filled to the brim with folded clothes. I look around at sunglasses, shoes, jewelry and other fashionable things that I strategically placed in areas of my room that was once mere space used for my prayers and cries out to God for an answer on where my life was going.
To some it may look like another small NYC “fashion woman’s” room, but in that moment, to me it was a flashlight in the direction in which God is taking me. It’s a space of gratitude and appreciation for where I have come and the building up of things to come. I know that I will continue to outgrow this space and will move on to larger places, but in the meantime God has shown me how to take time to really notice the blessings that I have around me. To not get so caught up in life that I only pay attention to the large accomplishments that I’ve made, rather than saying “thank you” for the smaller strides made along the way.
Today’s look is more of a challenge that I have for you all! This look was a bit of an accident because I was originally going to wear a lace skirt that I had cut the lining out of, but the overall look turned out to be a bit more revealing than planned. So, I decided to wear a pencil skirt backwards on top of the lace skirt, and unzip the bottom detail to show beauty in unexpected places. My challenge to you this week is to find the beauty/blessing in your life that you may not have noticed before. Take the time to slow down and look at where you have come from and the amazing direction that God is taking you! 🙂
Photographer: Lloyd Edwards
Xo- Chrissy Joy